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June 20 Stress fresh working young adult!Finally I can feel the taste... ...STRESS! Sometimes really no idea to process the work. No mood No ideas... my brain get stuck to it. Feel unhappy when facing that problem. Sometimes really cant control my temper after work back to home...I quite moody. This few day I taking the bad mood go into sleep. I know this is unhealthy for me but I have no place to release out. Sometimes even no ppl really know my feel. I jz try to pretend myself in front of ppl. I hope that ppl will understand me. I wish a ppl appear infront of me tell me that he or she is understanding me...who will be that person??? Stress fresh working young adult! I dont like that...
Designer! The post have a good name. But it is a stress & pressure post. Everyday need to keep in NEW & FAST. How can I process as a robot? I'm a human being, have mood, have feeling... ...no a printing machine. From start I know that this kind of work will be not easy, but I have no choice. I have to work. Because I'm still fresh + no experience + not smart enough + no cute or pretty compare with others... ...so is my destiny? I hope that someday it could change.
If somebody read this page of my blogs, pls leave me a comment... ...IS I'M STUPID? NOT SMART ENOUGH? June 19 有心学不怕迟！工作也快两个礼拜了。。。时间真的过得好快。 眨眼间， 我已经是个上班族了。。。这样的生活不懂要过到什么时候？ 开始有点不耐烦， 哈哈！ 其实， 这两个礼拜来我每一天都过得很开心， 也很充实。 因为在商业职场上所学到的在课业上是完完全全部一样的。 现在的我觉得很实在。 我的作品开始有人欣赏了， 虽然有时候有不好的评语，但不要紧。 经验慢慢累积。 希望今日以后有人能肯定我的设计。。。信心重建！
尔。。。这几天发现了老板的长处。 原来他是很厉害的！！！ 很想向他学习网页设计。。。幸好他很乐于教导我，相信不久以后他能把他毕生的网页经验教导我。 我还有一段日子要慢慢学习，一步一步来。 一天学一样。 知识是累积的。 有心学不怕迟！ June 16 Suprise i had...received a ROSES...wahh!!!The 2nd week I'm work... ...started feel bored of this kind of life... ...everyday have to wake up early then prepare to work. I'm still cant used to this kind of life yet. Dont know still have how many years I need to live in this kind of working life??? My mind started BLOCK...I cant think out of the boxs...my mind keep closing & stopping me to think. I dont know Y? Maybe I still dont like or wish to live like that yet. Sometimes really feel suffer when working... ... Althought my working place is not so tight with the rules, but still feel uncomfortable... feel that not my pLACE... NOT mine!!! What should I do? What can help me think of something creatively? How can I improve in my design work? How? Who can help me? I totally feel so down, because of my brain cannot function well...wuwu!!! Feel wanna cry wanna give up...
When in school life I really feel proud of my works. Any of it... I dont know Y? Maybe that can control by myself... all in my hand. I have a group of supporters... I think I had lost my confident!
My mine get BLOCK! How can i open it? How do I need to create new things??? I hope that one day I can overcome it...best wish to myself! I hope that god will blessing me always!
What a suprised Today I have when went to office...I received a bouquet of Roses...Wat? I also cant believe my eyes... wat had I seen!!! Small MR HOON come in from the office main door after took the roses out from his car then pass it to me. He didnt say anything, just said that is mine. Then I ask really? I thought he kidding to me again (because everyday he like to talk non-sense to me)! I ignore to receive it. Then Big MR HOON came out. He said that's really mine! Ask me to keep it. Then he when back to office again. I totally no ideas who gave me. All my collogue looking at me. Make me so shy!!! HAHA! Ok that's totally not my admire gave me!!! I sure that! HAHA! Then finally I guess that is one of my client gave me to thanks me that day I help him to design his Name Card & he is a florist shop owner... ...haha. How clever I'm. But untill not I still cant sure that yet!!! Anyway thanks to that person ya. Although I dont exactly know who the person is.
Ok end of the story for today... June 11 Working life still FRESH 2 me Quite a period of time i didnt log to MySpace...a lot of purposes..., so now is time that I told abt everything that happended recently. 1stly, I got a JOB. Emm, jz a simply post "DESIGNER". Ok, i think now I'm quite happy abt that. Besides can learn new software, I know new guys...emm it is temporary enough for me now.
2day is the 3rd day I'm working. Still FRESH for me. Havent get into BORED, BUSY life... but hold day hang with the monitor screen, my eyes ball nearly fall out. I think I need to prepare a bowl infront of my desk. Anytime standby to get prepare of my eyes ball drop! HAHA! Anyway, now I'm quite enjoy my life.
Althougt it is a small company I in now, but I'm happy wit I having nice 2boss & 3collogues...MR TAN, 2MR HOON, Ms LIM & AH HEE...they are very friendly! I like them. AH HEE & I are the designer. He is a smart & hardworking boy. Beside talent in the art designing work & others software he still working for part time job earn money for his part time course. He teach & helps me a lot in work. He jz like my younger brother. Meanwhile the others collogues are MS LIM & small MR HOON. MS LIM is the clerk there. Actually in not very know wat she does in the company, but as I know that she is quite busy everyday. Beside pick up phone need to photocopy too... N small MR HOON is the marketing person. Need to out GRAB JOB everyday in day hot sunny day, raining day too... He likes to play wit me. Everyday will have different jokes or kidding wit me. If I'm not enough energy I think I will laugh till die. Oh forget anyther person. Out accountant...MS Faxxx not remember her name...too long. I'm not very familair wit her, because she din sit in the office, she just a part time worker. Come to office every afternoon then leave...she is a Malay... driving white color Kancil... this is only wat I know abt her. Emm...BIG MR HOON... he is incharge of all the designing work. He is the boss also the HEAD of the creative director. In this few days, he really put a lot of effort to teach me a new software. He give me sometime to learn & also lend me some book as a guide. Now is in the working field, no more training or studying. So everyting need to be fast & fast...now I can doing work wit that software, jz a simply work. still not enough perfect. But I will try my best to do it well!!! Soon I will be come TALENT as people always said me that...WAKAKA!!! MR TAN, I jz know he is my boss. That's all for him.
Is true that BIG MR HOON is a nice boss. He have a good temper, sometimes I work in very slow or not enough perfect he didnt shout me at all, & very good temper to show me step by step. I like his working attitude, but dislike his lifestlye...he is a SMOKER! HEAVY SMOKER. Even though he didnt smoke infront of me, but I can smell for his body. Everytime when he is beside me teaching me, a strong smoky smell comes to my nose. Make me quite hard to breave...so i eat sweet... to reduce the strong smoky smell. Y? Y all the talent creative person that I know is a SMOKER? Even my uncle also that! Y? I cant understand... because of pressure? BULL SHITT to me! Anyway, I know I wont be that. Because I HATE SMOKER! I HATE the SMELL!
Ok. I think is enough for me share in this moment. Any new news will be update soon. TATA! June 03 人生中的第一份工作下星期一开始，
我将会开始
我人生中的第一份工作。。。 。。。
我开始有点害怕
我在想， 哪会是一个怎样的开始？
开心？ 压力？
我不懂。。。 。。。（无言）
希望一切顺利！
加油 哦！ |
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